I play the right emotions outward
You see them on my face
You hear them in my voice as it trembles just at the right moment
Playing them out for the world to see
An actress on a stage performing for the back of the house
Standing ovations for my portrayal of me
The wrong emotions on the other hand
The real ones I keep locked deep inside
Locked up so very tight
I hold on to those with white knuckles of fright
Out of fear for my own safety
I huddle around them in the darkness
Holding them close to me
Like a frightened child holding onto their blanket for comfort
I fear what the world might think of these true thoughts of mine
The character you see is not really me at all
It is the product of what people want and what people need from me
For the actress always pulls this off with grace
Gracefully pulling this off is always the actressShe is caring and understanding
Forgiving and entertaining
Her beautiful smile even lights up her eyes
Like real smiles easily do
She’s so believable
As I shake and cry in my head, inside my breaking heart
My heart that bleeds more and more at every lie the actress convincingly tells
I’m killing myself to play this role
It’s time for her understudy to step out of the dark
Find her light and shine
With all the truth that has been locked inside her heart
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