When you bite into my flesh
let your teeth clamp down
break through my apple skin
Can you taste the desperation running through my veins
can you smell its bitter scent seeping through my pores
feel it drip down your chin
let it settle on your lips...
Lover, do you know how many times I have brought myself here before you
how many times this body has been left bone dry by men trying to replenish themselves on all a woman has to give
look closely
you can you see my fingerprints on the headboard from the time I held on for dear life as I let him steal a part of me
There is an outline of my body on the mattress
I left it there to remind myself that I still exist
I settle in its creases
it feels like escape
feels like longing for a way out
feels like hell
feels
like home
Pay no mind to the blood stains
they spell my name out on the fabric
you always said I looked beautiful in red
I did it for you
to show you that I was worth more than what your calloused fingers were willing to give me
I never wanted your midnight kisses
your skin underneath my nails
never wanted
just needed
to know that I was alive
It gave me a reason to hate myself again
I swallowed your name
pushed it down hard
held it deep in my stomach until it burned its way out of my system
I have discarded the secret of you like so many other childish things
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